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Guess what?

I just had KFC.

And I'm not guilty, not one little bit. Nope.

there's a lot of things I hate.

Like my 2GB iPod.

Srsly. NEEDMOARMUSIK!!111

Yes, that is all.

No, wait. YOU'LL GET YOUR FUCKING PRESENT WHEN IT COMES. >.<

;]

Hahaha, just joking. ilyx

o hai ecuts.

you are my new hero.

win.

nvm.

[center][size=225][b]SHE'S NOT A REBEL
BUT SHE IS NO ANGEL[/b][/size][/center]

Some people need to back the fuck off.

honestly, go get a life. Or a job. or FRIENDS.

Blahhhh.

Good fucking lord people. I am so cold, honestly. Even my ninja jumper cannot keep me warm right about now. Stupid friggin' New Zealand.

Mother's dayyy. I haev to go to fucking Tauranga, don't get me wrong I love my cousins and shit but honestly, I would much rather go to a Rangi VS Westlake soccer game with my friends. Sounds like fun, no? Considering she is Rangi and all the other people that would be going are Westlake.

Talking about my school...someone got bowled down by a bus yesterday. Horriblehorriblehorrible. She was 45 and died at the scene. So many people I know saw it happen.

When I walk up the top steps there is like, this overwhelming feeling of sadness, for someone I never knew. Someone's died and this person is a daughter, a sister or a mother maybe, someone who actually had people that care about her.

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Randomer happier ramblings. Went to KFC last weekend, ahhh. It was like, nine fucking thirty honestly. Anyway, went to see Qaurter2, managed to rope a friend into coming along. She had ever heard of them and OMFG she loved them I was quite suprised. ^^ Courtney is kewl. lolololol. Their EP is so fucking good, honestly. I can't believe I waited so long to get it, I woulda been a much happier girly if I had gotten it earlier. Cutting You Out is my favourite by far. Don't ask me why. Well. Because it is very honest and angry and and and and and. Yeah. I listened to the album on repeat til 2am.

It was fucking rad.

I'm sick, it's total epic fail considering I stayed up late last night to study for an english assment that I had first thing this morning.

Tears.

Tears.
Hateful tears.
Tears of humiliation. Hate. Anger.
But most of all, tears of betrayal.

Betrayed, that is how you felt when as you stormed of stage, throwing down your microphone to loud, relentless, abusive calls of â�˜fuck you, Way!â�™ and â�˜sell out!â�™.

â�œI quit! I fucking quit!â� You yelled hysterically pacing furiously, gesturing with your hands the way Italians so often do when theyâ�™re upset. â�œI canâ�™t do it anymore! The whispering-â� you affected a high pitched, mocking tone of voice-â�œâ�™You changed, sell out, sell out!â�™â� Your shoulders shook as you slumped to ground, finally resting your eyes on me for the first time.

â�œWho the hell are you ?â� You glanced nervously around as if I was one of those unfaithfuls, turning against you, turning into the very thing they, and the whole essence of the band, had stood against a few short months ago. I desperately tried to shrink back into the shadows, trying to avoid being the one under the full force of your wrath.
â�œGet her out of here, someone!â� Your hazels blazed and your voice rose as you searched for whoever was guilty of this horrendous crime.

The fact of the matter, Gerard Arthur Way, is that no one is this room is responsible of that particular crime. Truth is, that the person most punishable is the driver of the log rig that rolled on the highway tonight, making me late for the Meet and Greet; a prize I had so desperately coveted.

I stared defiantly into your dark; moist eyes as you turned more and more hysterical, â�œKeep the faith, Gerard. I know I have.â� With those as my parting words, I was pulled from backstage room full of your anxious band members and management, with a large and strong, yet surprisingly gentle hand.

â�Sorry kid, itâ�™s not you. Itâ�™s everyone else.â� Worm muttered as he left me in the chilly outdoors.

Sitting on the pavement waiting for my parents to show up, I was startled by a large figure appearing behind me.

You.

â�œIâ�™m sorry kid, about tonight.â� You looked nervous, on edge; as if I could snap and I had been pretending all along, getting back stage just to break you down even more. Iâ�™m on your side.

â�œI understand, I do. And I am sorry you had to go through that.â� I fumbled around in my bag.

â�œYeah, well it wasnâ�™t the first time. It was the last time, though.â� You blew out a thin stream of smoke as I pulled my very reason for coming out of my bag. You regarded it apprehensively, â�œWhat is it?â�

â�œItâ�™s a book, filled with stories from fans. Fans who still believe, fans who donâ�™t mind change, fans that still see the same guys behind the music as they did when they fell in love with Bullets, or Revenge.â�

You took it, hands trembling as you ran your finger tips over the emblazoned silver calligraphy on the black, bound cover, â�˜Keep the Faith.â�™ You looked at me, eyes moist once again, â�œIâ�¦thank you.â�

â�œKeep the faith, Gerard," I whispered, my voice hoarse almost, "keep the faith.â�

â�œI will. Always.â� I left you standing there in the night. You, my Hero.

sorry if the formatting is absolutely fucked.

http://www.mibba.com/forums/topic/32470/

rambling: music, gdo, s//c, panic!, donnie darko, l//m,

i just realised how long my myspace name is. XD
god, good times.

quite unfortunate last night. we left girls' day out and half an hour later goodnight nurse came on stage. gutted.
we didn't even know man, we were pissed.
oh well. not much i can do about it. i had a great day.
semi-great anyway.
i kissed a wall.
made signs about 'sean-on-the-bus.'
smacked me head in a army vehicle.
wrote s//c everywhere.
and leathermouth.
yeah, promote my own way bitches.

i just discovered a new band. new tomorrow.
ohmygodddd.
i quite like them.
i love s//c as well.
new gearrr, holyshit.
and l//m. ohmylordy.
words cannot describe that how i felt when i saw the vids of the knitting factory.
they're like a force. a huge ball of power, energy and hope.
yeah, i get hope and peacefulness out of that music?
am i weird?
other people feel that way.
what does that make us?

donnie darko.
fabbbbulous.
heh. frank wins.
it's fucking creepy.
but, ohso funny.

panic!
i am absolutely stoked that they're coming back.
i didn't see them the first time; too young.

ohhh, false start is love.

XD
that was quite diddly random.

I gots taggged!

Yeah, thanks Aleena. =>

The Challenge: List 12 songs that cheer you up.

The Rules:Tag 8 people , then they have to tag 8 as well.

1-Holding On; False Start.

Okay, first off. I love this band to pieces. And this song, brought back the faith I had lost in music in its ability to make everything feel okay again. It brings a huge smile to my face every single time I hear it, thank you guys.

2-Plug In Baby; Muse.

Okay, seriously, how can anyone not like this song? The entire thing blows my mind every time, as do all of their songs. To think that a sound that amazing can come from three (extremely talented) guys just astounds me.

3-I Want Candy Dead; Geoffrey Paris.

Haha, oh my lordy haha. Go listen to it. Ain't no finer girl in town, "'Cause she's a slut!" You're my girl what the doctor ordered, "I didn't know you have a skank as prescription!" It's so wrong, and I don't know if I should really be listening to stuff like that, but holy cow it is funnay. Fun bus rides annoying Rosmini with that song. x]

4-7 Weeks; Gym Class Heroes ft. William Beckett.

There is something about this song that gives me happy tingles. It something about how desperate William's voice sounds when he's singing.

5-Seconds; Scenic Drive.

Yeah, you most probably won't know these guys or this song, actually. I'm betting you don't. Another fantastic Kiwi band, touring with False Start. The line "Well I can, but I won't wait when we're seconds from disaster", makes me feel crazy things inside.

Oh, and I took some quite good (If I may say so myself) photos of them the other day, if you wanna see, just lemme know and I'll upload 'em. =]

6-Blow; Atreyu.

First song I heard of Atreyu's and made me want to see them in the town hall (with Avenged Sevenfold and Bullet For My Valentine!) even more. But nooo, my sister has to save money for the UK!

7-Hollaback Boy; Cobra Starship

It makes me laugh so incredibly hard, gotta love Gabe. Also, I converted a few of my friends to Starshipism 'cause of this song. x]

8-This Is My Life (But You're The Worst Of Actors); False Start.

Yes, FS again. That intro gets me every time. The video is very rad, also. I love it, and it reminds me of one of my best friends who played the beginning of it over and over on my iPod for like, an hour while I listened to S Club 7.

Yes, we have awesome taste in music. =]

9-One of my Lies; Green Day.

It's kinda crazy, that song. Reminds me of my sister. =] ilu, sis.

10-The End; My Chemical Romance.

Ahh, yes. I know you all were thinking "Ohmygee! Where are MCR?" They're here bitchesss.

This song is kinda angsty and it's off my favourite record of theirs and if you take the left headphone out the very first few lines are a Capella and his voice is just awesomeee.

11-Skylines and Turnstiles; My Chem.

loveitloveitloveit. It makes me want to get up and scream my fucking lungs out. and swear, oh yes, swear.

12-New Friends Request; Gym Class Heroes.

"This is me at my most honest, no heroes, no gym class status, just Travis. Love it or leave it, you gotta admit, on the scale of one to awesome I'm the shit."

Travis is so amazing lyrically. He so very...tongue in cheek sometimes. I'll hear stuff and go, 'how the hell did he come out with that?' My best friend gave me As Cruel As School Children and I loveee it. And her, she is so cool.

13-Seize The Day; Avenged Sevenfold.

It's quite beautiful in a weird way, makes me very peaceful.

14-Murder Was The Case They Gave Me; Leathermouth.

Leathermouth has the incredible ability to make me calm and peaceful when I'm all stressed out. Anyone who's ever listened to them will either be going, 'WTF!' or "I agree...' It's so...angry and sometimes full of hate. But I love it, I love them and I love Skeleton Crew. [Sing to the tune of... Go add me biatchesss.]

Yeah, so it was more then 12. hahaaa. And as you can tell, one of my most overused words is amazing.

I'm not going to tag so if you want to do it just go ahead and say I tagged you. =]

Ooh fuck. I am so pissed.

I do this marital arts thing, right? And I haven't liked it for a very, very, very long time.

Lastnight I went on this big ass rant on how I hate it and how much I wanted to quit it. It resulted in a very pissed mother.

So today, she gets home and goes "You're going to have to ring Kempo to say you're quitting." I was like: What now? So she says "I canceled the payment."

I got really mad, and said something like "What! Why!" So she goes on and on about last night and how I said I hated it, how I've always hated it.

I told her I always wanted to get my blue belt (I'm currently on my green -- about two months away) and she was adamant that I didn't.

But the thing is, I've told her that over and over again; that I want that blue belt I told her aggges ago. But no, she never fucking listens to me. Only when it's something negative or when it's about her.